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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
OK something just happened that REALLY pissed me off. I was reading a post by one of the "ADD ME YOU FUCKERS" people in the addme groups... so I went over, read her profile and posts, and added her in the interest of just making new friends... She had a post where she was asking everyone to give their name, so I did so..
So anyway the biotch then posts something like "you are 34 and I am 15 so you dont get any comments from me, get it?"...
Well anyway my whole point is, don't hate on people and treat them like some pedophile or weirdo just because they say hello AFTER YOU MAKE A PUBLIC POST ASKING PEOPLPE TO DO JUST THAT.
Someone's maturity level is REALLY showing there... It aint like I am driving around offering candy to the kids... hell I didn't even know how old this person WAS, nor do i care.
Just listening to some Buddha Bar music trying to chill out. I have a seriously overwhelming day to deal with today. Lots of documentation to do, REALLY starting to freak out from the lack of tobacco, have to go visit a customer downtown at 1pm, have to start seriously dealing with this house situation. Too much to think about. MY brain is completely overloaded.
Starting to wonder if I am too old for this LJ thing. Most of the people I have met online here are between 17-25 (I am 34). I guess it really does not matter. Makes it a little more difficult to relate to each other, but I am a really openminded person and easily befriended. Maybe I should post to more of the ADDME groups and see what happens.
Anyway, I gotta go back to work. I just wanted to take 5 minutes and post up something. ADD ME! =)
Current mood:  distressed Current music: Buddha Bar III
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Well it looks like we will finally be getting out of the house we bought just 4 years ago. We finally got pre-approved for a much nicer place in West Houston. I am extremely excited. Not much else going on. Finished all of my documentation for work early today, and going to the doctor this evening to have my head shrunk.
Well today is shaping up to be a quiet day. Not much going on in the way of work. I have a long document to work on but it will keep me away from the phone and focused on one task all day, which is a good way to make the time fly by.
I had an "episode" last night where I got angry and threw an empty dr-pepper can across the room because my evening had been interrupted by someone. A typical mood-swing, but the first one I have had in months. I really did not understand it all that well, because 5 minutes later I was just fine. Tonight I will be seeing Dr. Hamilton so I will tell him about it.
Manic Depression really sucks!
Monday, September 13, 2004
Quitting tobacco is really a lot harder than I thought. It has been 4 days now and I feel like I am plugged into the wall or something. Cannot calm down. Wondering if it is worth it.
I figured I spend about $400 per month on tobacco products (copenhagen)... thats CRAZY! I have to do something about it. Half of the countries I travel to have banned it anyway... so when I go to Hong Kong or Australia again they just take it away at the airport. I come back to the states 2 weeks later and just start up again. I have no idea why. Now I have a real break from travel for a few weeks and a good chance of quitting... I just hope I make it without gaining 30lbs.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
The travel is killing my home life.
My wife I know misses me when I am gone... These 3-week trips out of town for work have to stop. I spoke to my boss about it, and he said that we would cut back on the travel to about 5 days per month...That will work!
Only problem here is that he said the same thing 2 years go. I hope it works out.
Monday, August 23, 2004
Today was a really messed up day... If you read my posts over the last few days you know I am in London right now. Anyway, I am so wanting to be home. Three weeks away from Texas in this country is too long. I always seem to really enjoy the travel and wish for it when I am stuck at the house doing nothing, but after this much time on the road, all I can think about is my own bed and cooking some of my own food. I miss my dog Radar and my cat Bevo too. Ugh.
I did find something cool here in London. I found a restaurant called the "Texas Embassy" here in town.. Definately want to try it out before I fly home on Thursday. Gotta see what the British think "Texas Food" is.
Something tells me they WONT get the BBQ sauce right.
Someone comment please. I am starting to think I am a REALLY boring person here.
Friday, August 20, 2004
I found this online today and just thought I would share it for others out there who may have issues with depression or bi-polar disorder...
READ
This is important so read it.
Suicide: The Permanent Solution To A Temporary Problem
Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone.
What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.
What about pills? Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.
What about a gun? Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too.
But... Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it.
Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son?
The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.
Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now.
You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.
You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? -Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.
Remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
IF YOU’RE READING THIS, PLEASE STEAL IT AND PUT IT IN YOUR JOURNAL, TOO
Ok well I just found something positive about London... Some REALLY good pizza. Since I arrived here last week I have suffered through the wretched English food, but the guys in the office here where I am consulting pointed me toward "Pizza Express"... I guess a London Only thing...
Anyway..it is GREAT. If you are from the USA, try the "American Hot" pizza + Jalapenos. A Must have!
Well, this IS my first time in London... But I am NOT impressed. Geez I wish I was back in Asia or something. Everything costs literally 2X as much here. A freaking candy bar is the equivalent of $3.00. I do not like it here at all....
One minute it is 90 degrees outside, the next minute it is 60 degrees and raining. People are not friendly either. It is amazing to me how different the countries are as I travel to them... Not only the climate but the culture as well. Someone told me that London was a beautiful place - - I do not see it. Maybe this weekend I will try to get out of my hotel room and do some sightseeing. If I am lucky that might change my opinion.
Current mood:  crappy Current music: Moby - Early Underground
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